I'm The Girl Who Gave Up

Anonymous asked: You are beautiful. I want to brighten your wonderful life with colors and flowers and white roses. With chocolate and fairies that let you have good dreams, with ballerinas on a charm bracelet and a heart with your name in it on my cheek. I love to warm any rainy day with a smile. I hope you love you as much as I do ~~<3~~ (something that isn't hate(:)

You’re really lovely, I hope you know that. More people in the world should think and act the way you do. You may well have just made my day, despite what anyone else says to me. I hope you have a wonderful day :) <3

It’s my little sisters fifth birthday today. She lives with my dad, I live with my mum.

He’s throwing a big party for her, and I rarely see her, so I was going to it.

But now, I refuse to leave my house because I am too upset.

I am a disgusting coward. I can’t even fake a smile at my own sisters birthday party for her.

I’m letting her down.

I do keep an eye on those I follow.

If you stop posting, I will notice.

I always do.

I will post asking where you are, and if anyone has seen you around, or spoken to you

Because knowing that someone I follow killed themselves, and I didn’t notice, is the worst thing in the world.
I follow you all because you’re like me. You hurt. And I’m scared for you, the way others pretended to be scared for me, except I promise I mean it.

Together we’re stronger. I may have just made this blog, but I promise I will check on you all, and we can be strong together <3 

All I ever do is wrong.

I gamble on everything.

I gamble my friendships.

I do stupid things.

Even this blog.

I’m in love, and I’m risking it all.

See, the person I’m in love with loves me back for a change.

And if they see this blog, I know they won’t love me anymore.

I’ll hurt them if i keep on cutting myself.

But I can’t help it. 

I need to get away.

I’m sick.

blood-and-flowers:

but typing “ok sleep well :) “